Have you achieved what you wanted 5 years ago?

Today, for some reason I've been thinking of what had become my life.  I questioned myself, have I achieved what I had wanted 5 years ago, the answer to that question is not exactly.

Five years ago, I was 23 years old and wrote in my diary that I wanted to become an actress in Hollywood, so I moved from Puerto Rico to Los Angeles.  Reality strucked me, when I started to work on a part-time job that could barely paid me enough to pay for my rent,  it's not as easy as shown on the movies.

That desperation of gaining enough income to pay for my bills, especially rent made me search for full-time jobs, even though that would mean put on hold my dreams and goals of becoming an actress.  I got those full-time jobs and to be honest they never full-filled the hapiness that being on stage or being in front of the cameras makes me feel.

Now that I'm 28 years old and feel some way or another, stuck in the same place I was at the beginning when I move to Los Angeles,  I ask myself :  Is it true that life is all about risks and go for what you really want? or Should you let your dream go and keep doing something that doesn't give you hapinness, because you are scared of not receiving that pay check at the end of the month? What would be your answer for both those questions?

Me, right now, I got my headshots, I've been submitting for parts to audition, met with someone who is in the business for advice and just finished my first appearance on stage in Hollywood, it's not much, but at least it's a start.

I'm also trying to figure out a way, I could get the income that I need to pay the bills, but that could also be fun doing and could give me the flexibility to work on my acting. Believe me when I say, I will figure it out, I need to do this for me,  I'm tired of going day after day to a job I'm extremely bored of, because it's not what I desire.

So friends, at the end of this year, at least I need to be working on a job it would be fun to do and it gives me the flexibility of time that I need and also have  a demo-reel for me to present to managers.

So what about you? Have you achieved what you wanted or at least on the path for it? If not, what had made you change paths?

There this line, that I had heard on the trailer of the upcoming movie of Disney called "Brave", where Princess Merida says something like this: If you have the chance to change your fate, Would you?

I would, what about you?

Peace and love,
Allie